Where has the time went?

Wow, hard to believe that summer is half way through.  I went to the Dr. today and have lost a grand total of 65 lbs.  I want to lose the last 30 pounds then I will be exactly where I want to be.
I am giving myself until January 1st!
I would say it should be easy but.....................................  losing weight never is easy.
One of the hardest things I have ever done a million times. lol
I have lost, gained, lost, gained and gained
This time it is a total life change not just the losing weight but changing my life and the way I look at food.
No longer do I live for the day that I can go out to eat at a restaurant or have that meal of a lifetime over and over again.
This is my life from now on and I just have to get used to it.
I will always be a person whom will have to watch what they eat.  I own it, embrace it but gosh don't I wish it was different.